Winter Abound

Winter is in full swing in Maine.

Winter began in mid December with a good dusting of snow, but then covered with rain.  January gave us extreme freezing temps that even I started to get sick of them.  I think my only response is cuddle and sleep.  Got myself outside as much as possible, even though my internal core just didn't want to warm up.  This year is making it hard to be my regular outside self.  Always good to find yourself not as your routine self.

One thing I set out to accomplish this month is painting larger than I have been, wait I think I started this summer. Since I started painting "plein-air" (outside painting) I have been using smaller canvas's.  I thought go big, Justine, you used to paint huge 8 foot paintings, this will be so easy....

Day after day I struggled to 'go big', first I thought it was my paint brush size, then maybe it was the paint?  Questioning myself and realizing I was in full struggle, the cold set in and my motivation kept thinking about those blankets and warm bed to cozy up in.

I have been listening to Better than Before by Gretchen Rubin and I must say this book is helping me get through my stuck.

She talks about habits and how we end up creating our habits and how our personality type can really sway our habits a certain way.  So many great tidbits about how to break or create new ones.  

A great new year/ new you book to reflect on your own personal habits and create new ones. Working to understand my personality better so I can understand my habit of having a consistent procrastination technique.

"Lost with the Rocks" by Justine Lasdin Springer 30"x30" Acrylic on Canvas

"Lost with the Rocks" by Justine Lasdin Springer 30"x30" Acrylic on Canvas

At least I got some legs in my habit race, got one of these paintings done.  30"x30", not 8 Feet, but I will take what I can get.

What's your habit that you are working on?

Welcome Spring

Tonight we celebrate the end of winter; a close of a chapter and the beginning of the next.  Even though the air is cold and huge ice chunks fill the land I think we all can feel the beginning of something new.  Instead of cleaning toilets and dusting the china I decided to change the entrance to my studio.  To give myself a mantra every time I enter my space and remind myself of the why behind the process.

  

Thoughts...

Got a moment to contemplate many thoughts stirring in my head. Thoughts about what success as an artist looks like to me. Well I think I am getting closer to defining my success. At least for now. I would hope our success can change and take different forms over time. My success right now is getting to my studio and painting.I am so thankful for my husband he not only allows me to run these thoughts by him, he fully supports my work and is my biggest fan (okay my mom, dad, and sister are also in that group). Really I feel I have my own personal critic and advocate right under my roof. I think my next step is recognizing that advocate in myself. Oh I also rocked some more rock paintings along this evening.

 

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Justine Lasdin Springer "View through the Rocks" 20"x7" Acrylic on Canvas $195

Are you warm?

I may be in 4 degree weather today, but my painting doesn't have to be. Does this make you feel warm?Earlier this month my mother traveled to Barbados and came back with amazing photos of rocks. She took these photos thinking of me and my paintings (thanks mom!). I must say that is the best feeling when someone sees something out in this world and thinks of you and your work.

Since I couldn't join her on a warm climate trip. I have chosen to live vicariously through her by painting the rocks that inspired her.

I started these paintings with very dark colors as the under painting, a deep blue and dark red. It really helped bring out the color I applied on the front. I have two more small pieces already prepped to go, but these are the ones I finished today.

Even though my toes where cold at the end, I think I conveyed the warmth and color of a warm climate. However since I didn't really go there I am sure you could see Maine in here too. What do you think?

 

Paint an Ugly Painting

IMG_9811 My goal tonight was to get to my studio.  It took me a long time to get there this evening because to start I was late coming home from work, had to stop for gas, and have been avoiding buying groceries this week.  So when I got home I had to get creative from the freezer before I could get creative in my studio.

Heavy feet and tired eyes I pushed myself into my studio to work not only on a painting, but work on my fears.  Fear 1:  What if I paint an ugly painting?

So my goal was to paint an ugly one, how?  By just letting it all go and find my freedom in the process and not the product.  I decided not to paint small for this one and use a 5 ft x 2ft board that has been sitting in my studio for a while.

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Ka-bam!  A painting and a full release of fear.  I now have myself an ugly painting…now it just needs an ugly frame.

 

 

Days Passing

remindersI keep walking by my yogurt container that has my cleaned paint brushes from two weeks ago and look at them with a feeling of regret.  I skipped my time in my studio last week, because I had holiday projects to make and create.  I keep kicking myself that I chose to skip that time and those paint brushes keep reminding me of this choice.

The feeling of avoiding my work because I am afraid I won't paint something good or paint at all keeps coming into thought.  Is this why I have procrastinated and avoided my studio?

It does ring a bit true, that fear is overtaking my thoughts and guiding my decisions. Then my boss asked me how my holiday project making went and I told her it was fun, but I skipped my art night.  She said "that's creative".  She is right, I have kicked myself all week about not showing up for my time, but I did.  It was just a different creative and maybe I needed to release an easier creativity.

Today I gave those holiday gifts out and got that great feeling and driving energy that I get when I give.  Just like the energy I get when someone enjoys my paintings and wants my work in their space.  So sometimes that "creative" energy may be simply craft work, cooking, dancing, or gardening.  And I am okay with that.  The paint brushes can sit, but not forever, and I can move a different creative energy around, so when I get to that studio it will be the right energy.